2024/05/07 I can't shake the idea that I'm wasting resources, wasting time, and wasting my life. I understand these changes have to come from me, and no one else, but it feels impossible to change and I don't know where to start. My life before this has been a waste, and I can't start over, so what else can I do? I don't feel worhty of jobs, I don't feel skilled, I feel slow and heavy and idiotic. Can I even change? · 2024/08/01: death? ·